I feel a lot of sadness and regret over what I gave up, although I was an adult when I became a witness so I got to experience my own childhood and adolescence without borg influence. My husband and I started studying while I was pregnant with our first baby, and we stayed in until our youngest was 4. I gave up 13 Christmas celebrations, 26 of my children's birthdays, normal relationships with our non-witness family members. Our choices cost my father in law the chance to celebrate even one Christmas or birthday with his grandchildren. He died before we left the Borg. I know it was my own fault, I'm not blaming anyone else. I feel a lot of guilt over what my choices cost my children and my non-witness family members.
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Things we missed out on :(
by lilbluekitty inanyone else get really mad sometimes about the fact that we missed out on proms, dances, sports games, being in sports, being in band, being in clubs, or going to college, or even getting good grades since armageddon was always "right around the corner"?
even if i went to college this year (at age 28), i'd be 10 years behind everyone my age!
i'm still going to go back but i feel so upset sometimes how far behind my peers i am in just about everything, including in the working world, where i am an entry-level employee with only a high school diploma (thankfully i didn't quit school to pioneer!!
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In All Honesty Would You Have NOT Given Blood To Your Child If He or She Needed it?
by minimus inas a "faithful witness", i never had to deal with this on a personal level.
i imagine the pressure must be extreme with the elders and others "supporting" you to do the right thing.. do you think you would have given blood to your family member, especially your child if you were in that situation..
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I don't knwo what I would have done had the situation actually happened to me. I hope that I would have had the good sense to allow a transfusion for my kids or my husband or myself, but I was pretty deep in the koolaid for a while. I am so glad I don't have to worry about that anymore.
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My Left Leg Was Amputated
by TOTH ini have been out of commission for several weeks.
back around the first of the year i developed an infection in my left foot.
due to diabetes and poor circulation the doctors were unable to save my foot and so i received a below the knee amputation.
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finally awake
I wish you a speedy recovery! One of Just Ron's uncles had a full leg amputation and he was able to learn to use the prosthetic pretty quickly.
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Anyone else having a bad week? Thought I was going to die!
by Newly Enlightened inso, this week has been hell!!!
it's been bad enough that all of our jw friends & family having been shunning us, 'unfriending' us on facebook and sending nasty emails to gojira...
so i have a dog, zoey that likes to tattle on the others, even humans.
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what a good dog Zoey is! I'm glad your house didn't blow up!
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Crazy public talk last Sunday: The Origin of Humans - Does It Matter What You Believe?
by 88JM infrom the congregation that brought you these watchtower comments, i thought you would enjoy some selected quotes from the public talk we had last sunday from the crazy talk outline: "the origin of humansdoes it matter what you believe?".
it's amazing this talk outline is still allowed - some of the material is hilarious, and the arguments are so wild and misrepresented.
i still have the audio file if you can bear to listen to it, i could pm you a link.
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finally awake
so the barbarism and torture commited by the Assyrians against the people they conquered isn't as bad as the violence and bloodshed we see today? I don't know about the rest of you, but I'd rather live here in the USA today than in medieval Spain (anyone remember the Inquisition?). I think the case could be made that in large parts of the world today, there is substantially less violence than there was pre-1850.
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New Girl
by Gypsy Sam inhope everyone is having a lovely day.
i ended up here after spending the past few months researching jw, without the blinders on.
i was a born-in, baptized as a teen, pioneered out of high school for a couple years (turning down a 4 year scholarship).
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finally awake
Welcome! Once you know the truth about the "truth" there's no going back
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Memorial invitation
by John Locke ingot this email from an elder.
makes me f*ckin sick..... .
hi jl,.
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I bet we don't even get an invitation this year. I think the local elders have written us off as mentally diseased apostates. I'm just very grateful to be free!
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Marry in the Lord
by Rattigan350 inthey do not do a good job of exploring why different people stop going to the meetings and make any improvements.. this is a quote from another topic.
it reminds me of the may 15 2012 study article about marry only in the lord, p 4 para7.
they are not trying to improve their product (the people).
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finally awake
My aunt worked for a Pepsi bottling company. They would get mad if employees bought Coke products for home use. God forbid anyone bring a Coke product to the office - they'd probably have fired the employee. Visitors to the office were required to throw away any non-Pepsi products they brought with them. I know that sounds crazy, but it happened to me when I went there.
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"Pray Anytime" - The Watchtower has a hit!
by donuthole ini was browsing youtube and it was interesting to see lots of jw covering the new caleb/sophia song "pray anytime".
they need to add this to the songbook.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cnine6nwgsk.
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finally awake
LOL SD-7, can you post a video of yourself singing that version? Or you know, just email me a sound clip so I can make it my ringtone? I think it would go perfectly with Cedar's Sparlock song, which Just Ron uses as my special ringtone.
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Is a slow fade being selfish when you have kids?
by dissonance_resolved inso i got some great advice to take things very slowly with the husband and kids in order to be able to fade and still maintain contact with my parents and siblings.
but today i got a call from my son's teacher that he was having a meltdown because he was worried about all his friends and teachers being destroyed at armageddon.... first i felt like such a schmuck for ever having allowed that thought to enter my son's head, then i thought, is it psychological torture for me not to immediately correct the situation?
i had a long talk with him about how god is perfectly just and full of love and he didn't have to worry about that at all, but it still seemed lukewarm.
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Lost Generation mentioned talking to your kids about the future in terms of career plans and life choices. That is something we always did with our kids, maybe that made a difference in how easily they adapted after we left the borg. It has to be a good thing if a kid is thinking about college and a career rather than armageddon and field service all the time.